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plans for jakarta:
1. Go thrift-shopping
2. Meet my bitches
3. Meet my male-bitches
4. Get a massage everyday
5. Go to the salon everyday
6. Lose weight
plans for siemreap:
1. discover myself, hahahhaha
2. explore a new part of asia
3. write poetry inspired by angkor wat or tonle sap
4. have fun with the school of arts kids, yeeeah!
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right now i’m feeling very sensitive.
and getting more and more obsessed about my weight
fuck you
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my blog is 1 year 5 days old!
it’s still the youngest of all my other blogs, but i sure hope this blog will last
photo courtesy of pinkcakebox.com
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int2040 com3413 enh2407
yikess. i’ve got less than a week to study for authorship. i am truly dreading it, at the same time, i wish it would pass quickly. i’m sooo beat. i stayed at sunway court for the weekend and its awesome, staying there makes me feel like i’m on a holiday or something. you wake up and you go swimming and just chill the whole day, away from civilization (we don’t have internet or astro yet). when you’re hungry you cook or head down to the nasi lemak place next door for some cheap food and rm1 drinks.
the only problem is that my beds a tad too small for my liking, and too thin. ohhh and if i were to stay there alone i think i’ll freak out. it’s a bit creepy. i think because it’s a old house and the lightings rather dark?
me and dhanto we’re thinking the other day, comparing our house to tata’s. why is the house in block b so bright? why is our house so dark and creepy? is it because they use fluorescent lighting while our’s is yellow? hahaha. but everyone who’s been to my house said it’s nicer compared to block b. and they all like my room 
i guess cos we’ve got real furniture. lol. but i believe once the internet and astro is running, the house will be a haven. oh yeah! i’ll post some pictures later after i get this damned virus out so i upload some pics.
oh and another problem is transportation. i feel a bit lost in that area, meaning, it’s hard to get a taxi in front of our condo. i’m very dependent on bram, and even though i know i’ll probably be spending 24/7 with him, it’s good to know you can still be independent once in a while, right? makes me want to get my own car. but driving will be shit, because of the new petrol prices that they say will increase again in august… aaaah! if prices go up again i might as well go back to holland, where with 10euros i can get a cheap secondhand (probably stolen) bike and the only maintenance i need is a good lock, and yeah come to think of it the living cost there is only $200 higher… why did i come to malaysia again? oh right, to pursue my “education”, lol. but of courseeee, if i didn’t come here i wouldn’t have met bram right? ahahahahaha
ooooh and today i got my honorary paycheck! it’s not much but it was enough to add to my savings. hmmm what should i splurge on eh? a new handbag? a new instant-camera? or save up for a trip to bangkok? grrrr i want all of it!! you know before all i did was spend spend spend, atleast now i’m learning to recycle my things and sell the items that i don’t use..ohh and now i make sure the things i buy are good quality products, not just some cheap 1kuai dongxi i buy at hongqiao shichang or sanlitun jie. hahaha. good for me then.
talking about hongqiao and sanlitun, i kinda miss beijing, i remember before my friends all agreed that we’ll make some kind of beijing reunion in 2008, when we’re all 21, and at that time i was like, “wow, 21 is such a big age… i’ll be an adult then” but now i’m almost 21 and it doesn’t really feel any different, it’s still the same old kemi only a bit wiser and more sober, haha. and now i look at all the pics that eda pat amy and lia are posting and i kinda wished i was there… huhh but last year i did go there and it felt sooo different… like i don’t belong there anymore.
hmm last year. it was a fun period. it’s almost been a year for me and bram omg that’s such a long time. if i think about how we ended up together, i really wish i could go back to that time! it was hilarious. i still keep some of the smses he sent me during the “gue-lo” periods. if i become a successful scriptwriter one day, i think i’ll make a film adapted from this time of my life. it would be like those romantic comedies. ahahaa.
okay i’ve been rambling. i’m sorry. anyway for all those peeps interested in buying my diana+ or polaroid joycam, don’t forget to contact me!
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I am thinking of selling my Diana+ and exchanging it to a Holga 120 CFN
and also thinking about selling my polaroid joycam in exchange for a fuji instax 200
anyone interested to purchase my Diana+ and Polaroid Joycam?
p.s: i just learned that new fisheye lenses for diana+ and diana f+ cameras are available to purchase! omg. but i already got my own fisheye. if only the diana+ has a flash…
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exams: int2040 com3413 enh2407
my laptop has a virus. fxxxxxxxck. it gets pretty annoying cos everytime i hibernate, it will show up. but like right now its not visible but i know it’s hidden somewhere. and now im super cautious about uploading files from my pendrive or ipod.
i seriously think there is something wrong with me this semester. i suppose it was all the house-related hidden stress. overall, this semester was shit. not THE shit, just shit. i was constantly tensed, i didn’t put out in my assignments, i felt so bloody anti-social, and i bloated. with a new house, new environment, i really really really hope that next semester will be better. will be great. will be legen…wait for it….DARY!
i’m planning to make 2008 my ultimate traveling year. I’ve already kick-started the year in China and Hongkong, and this summer I’ll be in Siem Reap, Cambodia, and I’m planning to go to Bangkok, Singapore and Perhentian Island next semester… amin amin i hope my plans work out!
xoxo
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the spinning top made a sound like a train across the valley
fading,
oh so quiet but constant ’til it passed
over the ridge into the distances
written on your ticket
to remind you where to stop
and when to get off
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a big warm hug to my frequent, loyal readers (yeah like there is any, ahahaha)
i’ve moved 90% of my belongings into Sunway Court, just missing the big bulky bed frame that hasn’t been dismantle by bram yet (and maybe a pair of shoes that are hiding between the messy pile in Palmville). I would have started to sleep there once the internet is running (and preferably astro as well), which may take another couple of days.
i’m also suppose to be in exam mode, but lazy lazy lazy me… i’ve found excuses to do other things when the time couldve clearly been used for studying. like seriously, did i need to wander mindlessly in and out of topshop and mango (i did manage to buy a pair of new shoes from topshop, horray!)? or stare into space in the middle of the afternoon? or watch afroman’s because i got high 3times in a row? hahaha. i’m excusing myself from studying for today cause of all the moving-to-sunwaycourt-related stress, but tomorrow! tomorrow shall be the day where i start cramming.
oh and my body has been fluctuating inconsistently for the past few months. i lost several kilos while i was in hongkong, and then gained them back when i came back to malaysia. then throughout the semester it’s been up and down and up and up and up till the point that i couldn’t bear to look at my body in the mirror, and somehow i think i kinda lost a kilo or two (probably just one kilo) this week. but today i ate mcdonalds at the most irrelevant time and i feel like im gaining it all over again…gah! next semester i must (i repeat, must) start exercising, even if it’s just 5 laps in the apartment pool. maybe start the day with some sit-ups.
anyway its late, i’m kind of sleepy but at the same time i still want to stay up. so i guess i’ll just end this post and see where my mind takes me…
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i just got the keys to my new apartment! yay! unfortunately, with exams coming up and the fact that i still haven’t found anybody that can replace my old room in palmville (oh and don’t forget to mention being too LAZY to pack-up), the house is pretty much still empty. boky dhanto and i are waiting for our agent to set up a streamyx account for us, and i suppose we can only start living there in july. i’ve got a fresh new room that i can’t wait to decorate, unfortunately i must rack up some creative ideas in order to be able to mix and match the owner’s furniture with my own. here’s some ideas i got from bbc homes that helped inspire the kind of theme i want my room to have:
Hotel in the Tropics * Relaxing Haven
double o heaven * garden bedroom
art deco * french fashion bedroom
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that was the question that filled my mind throughout the weekend.
on saturday and sunday, i attended the tenth annual ppi-m (indonesian student association in malaysia) congress, held in universiti kebangsaan malaysia (ukm), as a full delegate. the whole objective of the congress was to settle the AD/ART and GBHO (basically the whole constitution that PPI-M stands on) and also to vote for a new president of the association.
yet throughout the day, i saw that little matters became the reason for the unsuccessful settlement of issues that were raised. in one part of the congress, we were discussing certain rules of the constitution. words such as ‘mensahkan’ (or ‘legalize’), was finally agreed upon an hour later with 6 options, and in the end? they decided to stick with the old rules.
examples of the discussions we had that stretched the agenda could go on and on, but it all basically comes down to one idea. in indonesia, discussion and coming into consensus on an issue is usually done through a process we call musyawarah mufakat (my lawyer-to-be older brother had once given me the translation for the term, but i’ve basically erased it from my memory because it was literally 2 sentences long), or something we can understand as “a process of deliberation and compromise, which will usually end up in an unanimous consensus, and becomes binding to the community” (The West New Guinea Debacle, n.d). this practice was done within small groups of organizations, usually within village governments, but has been adapted into our national practice of politics.
before, musyawarah mufakat was a unique practice that set us apart from the normalcy of democratic processes. indonesia wasn’t simply adapting whatever they did there in the western hemisphere, but we were amalgamating our own set of asian values with western democracy, we had something that neither malaysia, singapore, china, japan or vietnam had (at that time). we were able to be modern in a way that we did not lose our southern roots, we were glocalizing ourselves, and we were damn proud of it.
i believe i always had this thought in the back of my head, but it was just recently (at the congress) that i believe it struck me. we spent more than 12 mindless hours discussing and arguing, debating and rebutting and pretty much wasting time. yes. that’s what came to me. musyawarah mufakat is time-wasting. it is inefficient, and it is giving the opportunity for our citizens to inflate their egos and participate in a contest where they see who can yell “my solution is more concrete!” faster and louder.
efficiency is what we need to be able to catch up in today’s world. globalization (yes, sooner or later i will link everything to globalization…) is a fast-paced global process, fancy words to describe what is basically seen as a global race to see who is more developed and can rule the world. and unfortunately, musyawarah mufakat may be the one slowing us down (okay, maybe it isn’t the only thing slowing us down, but i believe it may be one of the factors).
yet cultural traditions such as musyawarah, silahturahmi, asal ngumpul, is also known to be a very asian culture. we live in a part of the world where social dependency and communal-ism reigns in our community, and stripping off musyawarah mufakat and just going by democratic voting isn’t exactly the way to go, either. so what is the concrete solution here? is it time to reform our understanding of how musyawarah mufakat should be? yes it might be a cultural identity kill, but don’t you think it might be worth it?
*random ramblings after attending a nationalistic congress and reviewing int2040. copyrights reserved.
