image from jebriggs.com
jakarta is one stressful city,
with its traffic, fast-paced metropolis lifestyle, and pollution.
its streets jam packed; filled with roaring engines of poisonous and heated passion.
its nights are bright and glamorous, a whirlwind of all-nighters and substance-driven bliss
this has been the city that i call home, even after 12 years of other adopted hometowns.
yet amidst all the liveliness, i feel an aching gap in my heart.
have i lost my passion for you, jakarta?
Filed under: heart's desire
the ultimate song to represent my feelings today: joakim – lonely hearts
though the vclip was far from what i had imagined. in my own mind, i had thought up an image of a tragic young love, disastrous and filled with drugs, sex, and violence.
or maybe i’m just the self-destructive one.
beijing is not my home anymore. i can feel it’s foreign presence. it is cold. it has lost its warmth. it had forgotten its roots and is seemingly trying to imitate metropolitan, capitalists cities. its pollution is unbearable, its people is still the same.
beijing had cleverly found its niche and advertised itself from that. yet, beijing is oblivious about several things that makes it uniquely beijing.
its hutongs. its broken english. its fake branded bags. its cheap drinks. its rou-chuanrs. its fascination with mandarin-speaking foreigners. all of those that makes it truly BEIJING.
highlights; meeting my homies
downsides; breaking my camera, being tired all the time, the pollution, and always ending up thinking about KL.
Filed under: heart's desire
they all come so randomly,
and leave unexpectedly.
you all are just a bunch of hellos and goodbyes…
and i just need one, to stay.
Filed under: random updates
heythere dudes and dudettes;
today i woke up and realized i wanted to go back to beijing.
and since my mother was already planning to go there this saturday, i checked my schedule and realized that i actually can go there too, since i have an 11day gap from my JRN1902 exam to my PRL2003 exam.
so i dashed to the nearest travel agent and booked a flight for saturday.
unfortunately the cheapest option was MAS and it was slightly off-budget. and i didn’t bring my passport with me.
but then my housemate said she wanted to book her flight back to jakarta as well. so we went back to the travel agent.
Tyas issued her ticket back to jakarta, while i asked them whether there was other flights to china.
and oh my god, air china had a ticket that was actually within my budget.
so there we have it.
I’m going to Beijing on Saturday!
yerps. i always end up being so last minute every time i go back to beijing. I wonder what’s up with that.
Filed under: random updates
listening to: interpol – obstacle 2
just got a new blog @iysnation.com
you can view it @ http://kemi.iysnation.com/
as for other updates;
woke up at 11, males2an seharian, went to campus at 4.30pm, tried to study, ended up gossiping *like always, went for a smoke, tried to study again, played ‘tebak gambar’ with tommy neneng vera, read the past exam, fell asleep at the foyer for 15 mins, talked with shazwan prezzna and joanna about bali, went to pink for dinner, went home, and here i am, sleepy and i think i should end this post.
toofles, eh, toodles.
Filed under: heart's desire
here i am again, laying on my bed, in my dimly lit, painted-green room.
listening to love songs the whole afternoon.
and i don’t need the nicotine, nor the alcohol.
drugs won’t give me this certain ecstasy i’m feeling right now.
a drowning sensation, hitting rock bottom of my emotions.
being carried away by the blissful echo, as it tingles against my skin and lingers in my ear
i have given myself completely to “love”, a certain imagery of a non-existing figure.
your identity is a mystery, yet my feelings are absolute.
i thank, the new romantics.
Filed under: heart's desire
what a lonely afternoon.
oh how does a tune influence one’s emotions?
it’s cloudy outside. and i am listening to broken social scene – lover’s spit
and i am wondering of all those people drinking lover’s spit..
they sit around cleaning face with it
i like it all that way…
Filed under: heart's desire
Love has a certain complexity that no human can understand.
My heart feels emotions that my brain cannot explain. Heart-thumping beats that lives outside the realm of reality.
To my own senses, to love is to possess. To give your heart, logic, and emotions to a certain someone, somewhere, at a certain time in your life.
Is that it? Is love time-binding?
Has the development of life taken my love away?
*ramblings after watching “Berbagi Suami” (Love for Share, 2006) and listening to Sore – No Fruits for Today
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after changing blogs from xanga, friendster blogs, multiply to blogspot (which also proved to be unsuccessful because my google account got really messed up and now i can’t retrieve my password!) i still find the need to blog about my ordinary day to day ramblings. Therefore I hope that wordpress can now be the host of my new blog, and I hope this one lasts. haha.
